That Invisibility Thing...

Posted by Lisa Laree to Beer Lahai Roi

In all honesty, one of the biggest revelations I had last week did not come because I was at Dive, specifically, but just because I was pulled away from the normal distractions of everyday life and my listening was dialed in...

I took advantage of the workout room in the hotel, and Wednesday was one of the days I was up early and hitting the treadmill. The only person in the room, I had music on my iPod, but I was more or less talking things over with the Spirit as I walked.

And I was thinking about the girls clubs...the revelation I'd had about it during the fasting day and the difference that had made.

But there was still one aspect of that whole thing that hurt.  It had to do with specific relationships,  and I still wasn't sure how to deal with it.  But as I was holding that up, asking what I needed to do to move through it and resolve it in my spirit, I got a flash of revelation about it.

'Oh...it's that invisibility thing, isn't it?' I said, suddenly remembering that my whole involvement in the girls clubs was part of what I had been told would be invisible.  And, being invisible, I shouldn't wonder that there would be certain folks who would just not even see that I was walking through a rough spot and could use a little encouragement. I've run into it before, in other areas.

And if HE made me invisible...well, I can't put any blame on PEOPLE.

And the answer I got was, 'Yes.'

But He continued.

'But that season is over, too.  You're done with invisible.'

I almost got dumped off the back of the treadmill.

'What?'

'You are done with invisible.  The time in those classes wasn't just about you teaching the girls...you were learning, too.  And now that season is done.'

Y'all, the world changed right there.  I had the original word about being invisible in 2002....that's 12 years ago.  I don't even know what it's like to be seen.

I changed the wording in my song lyrics slightly, because of that conversation.

Thursday evening, before we left our ice cream party at Rita's, she asked me, 'What are you going back to?'

I couldn't even answer that.  I have no paradigm for not being invisible...for being in the front and not in the back. I have no idea what is coming next.

But I have a feeling I'm about to find out.